….again….

Spring is almost here, in fact this weekend it will be ‘officially’ here! TBM and I have moved on and passed our loss and are trying again. It was a tough thing to get over for 2 very different reasons:

1) just because loss is hard in general

2)littlebigman decided that perhaps if he hadn’t gotten excited about the prospects of a sister or brother, I wouldn’t have lost it…..

#2 was a bigger hurdle to get over. No matter how many different ways we tried to explain that this was in NO WAY his doing, he still took on a sence of responsibility for it. He explained it so clearly…he used to get excited about his father coming to visit, and then it would be cancelled so no visit. He would get excited about his father saying that he’s call on Sunday, no call came on Sunday…so he decided to stop getting excited about it, then he wasn’t disappointed. I really hate that man right now for doing this to my son. For taking away his right to feel as though it’s ok to get excited about things.

We’ve been working through this hurdle, and I think we’ve been successful. In the mean time, we’ve given littlebigman little things to work on getting excited about and making sure we follow through….like taking him away for the weekend to Niagara Falls to an indoor waterpark for his birthday! It was his birthday on Feb 23rd, so the following weekend we took him and one of his best buds and had a BLAST! See….sometimes you CAN get excited and good things DO happen!